So I am sitting in the computer lab wishing that this five hour break could be over with! I want so badly to be home with my boys today. Lucas cried this morning when I left. That why are you doing this to me look he gave me as I left the house had me in tears driving down main street. I hate leaving the kids in the morning. I wonder everyday, "why am I doing this?" Really. Why? I don't know. they are only little once and everyday I pack up and leave them. Mondays are the worst. I am gone all day. Tuesday-Friday I am home by noon. Those days don't bother me. It's a good little break to go to school, do what I need to do for me or for work, and then be with the kids the rest of the day. It works. But Monday. How I loathe Monday.
I feel like a bad mom on Monday. I feel like I should be home watching Blue's Clues, making lunch, and just being around. But I am here and not there. Ah. This is not what I wanted. Ask me tomorrow. I will feel better until Monday rolls around.
We have a great Easter weekend lined up. We are staying here and not traveling to see my family. I made the choice to stay put and see them the next weekend and do the big April birthday get together then. I think we will have more quality time with everyone that way. I hate seeing people for five minutes and then leaving. It stinks. So this way will be so much better.
I need to get some pictures on this blog! It's not as easy as blogger was as far as that goes in regard to changing the template and html. Html and I are not friends. We don't get along well. Put us in a room together and someone gets jacked up. Usually the html. And that is never pretty.
So. I can type some more or focus on work I need to be doing. I will probably head on over to facebook. Get some lunch. And then crank a powerpoint. Because that's what I do. Always cranking a presentation or a powerpoint. I want to be cranking out baby booties that I just knitted or a new project that I helped Lucas with. Nope. It's Monday.
Sorry it's Monday. You're not a bad mom, really. Promise!!
Posted by: JessPond | 04/06/2009 at 01:40 PM